Exhausted

I feel exhausted, however, it is not in the negative connotation of the word.  I feel as if I have poured my heart into my work, which leaves me feeling exhausted.  This is a good exhaustion (considering I’ve worked over 15 hours today) because,  as of the moment, I feel a joyful exhaustion…ready to rest and take on tomorrow’s challenges.  It’s a strange feeling.  A good feeling.  An excited, wonderful feeling of passions let wild. I have put forth new work, innovative work, wonderful work with a like-minded individual; forcing the neurons in my brain to flare and allowing me to creatively think of how to efficiently use the resources around me. Maybe it’s a feeling you get when you’re working on something you love.  It’s a peaceful feeling, a harmonic feeling…it feels like the body is vibrating.  On the other hand, I’ve noticed that if I am doing a repetitive, tedious, task, I feel exhausted in the negative connotation.  I feel like I want to form trajectories out of plates, cups, and various other objects .  I cannot grasp how anybody would want to spend their time engaging in challenge-less, repetitive jobs. Who knows, maybe a perfect excuse would be to meet end’s meet.  But hey, I don’t live with a surplus of wealth…I still need to provide for myself.  I am now tired, and long story short, (to remind myself) I think it would be the best interest of everybody to engage in their passions.  It is best to avoid formulating regrets later in life.

I just woke up from a nap

I am a private person.  I don’t like to share what I am thinking with the world…I find it uncomfortable to do so.  This is why I’ve decided to start this personal blog.  I want to break the comfort zone and allow my creativity to flourish (as well as work on communication skills) and I feel a blog will help me to overcome these minor nuisances.  The one and only audience I expect to read this is myself.  However, if you are not me, then I welcome you to my random musings.  I will update this blog as I see fit and when I see fit.

I was taking a 1 hour break today (napped in my office chair).  I awoke from the sound of the rain and a random thought occurred to me:  reactive engagement.  Most people react to their surrounding environment instead of ‘enacting’ on it.  This means that people usually treat others the way they are being treated by the surrounding environment (other people, the weather, etc).  If somebody were to be rude to you, the heuristic outcome would be for you to return rudeness to that person.  If someone were kind to you, you would return the kindness and so on and so forth.  For most people, reactive engagement can be a blessing and a curse.  A person’s complete day can be made negative or positive, based on the interaction they have with another person.  Reactive engagement is very interesting to me because most people allow the environment to control them, instead of they controlling the environment.  I believe that some people have figured out this principle and this allows them to control the mood/emotion of another person.  In the hands of a con, controlling reactive engagement can be detrimental to the welfare of a person.  And, in the hands of a righteous person, they can bring lightness to any forsaken soul.  I believe if we all recognize that we have control over the environment (if we allow our minds to), the outcome would be VERY interesting.